Brainless misi

A group of HO's having exam.A good MO helping them out by teaching and leading them to answers.At the same time,there's a CME going on next door,got 'makan-makan'.However unable to start because the quota of MO present not enough.Misi2 sibuk nak makan je.

Misi : Dr. K**,what are you doing here?Go next door CME lah.Can't start now because not enough MO..

MO : Cannot lah.I have to take care of my housemens.

Misi : All this while we(as in the lazy bums) 'jaga' them exam.Where got MO 'jaga'?

MO : Cannot-lah.You all 'jaga',you all lari go makan..and leave them alone here.How can?My housemens felt neglected.No wonder they cannot pass..

Misi : You also stand here for what?Give them answers ha?How can lah?

MO : Where got give them answers?I teach them what...

Misi : Alah,no need to teach them lah...

MO : Where can??

New stuffs

Shall I invest in a digicam?

On my first pay,I invested for a queen size dunlopillo orthorest mattress.Which turns out to be a good investment.I thought of a hot tub next...Hehe,don't know where it will fit in my tiny apartment.

My first day in clinics.It's like when you're in a nightmare,wondering through the dark without proper guidance.Occasionally being told when and where to turn or walk.

I'm satisfied today.Had my fair share in being a bitch and a good samaritan.Good samaritan as in helping out some friends in need.Bitch as in,on the roads.
Some guys just couldn't stand when women drives...

Having one of my pre-call depressions..

The Drive

Do you know the feeling we get when the holiday is over?When our escape from our real world was over?The trip back to the real world..the inner feelings that we need to fight off during the journey back.The urge to actually turn back while we can..and truly escape.

I had that today

I speak again

I'm finally speaking again..after a long silence.Guess that many things had happened during the period of silence.

I've been at a point where I almost gave up blogging.No actually,I gave up for quite some time.Don't exactly know the reason why I'm back here.

Life is still the same.Same pressure maybe in different forms.I am still feeling trapped.Haven't changed much in my way of thinking.Still a failure in being a positive person.Currently in my second posting.Not sure whether I will be extended or not.

Seeing the priviledge Malaysians sometimes ungrateful of what they have.Too arrogant after getting so much.Seeing the transformation in individuals who lost the battle in keeping their personalities,identities...due to workload,pressure,stress..I'm talking about doctors.Those who work long hours till they are no longer themselves.Lack of empathy..Changed into a zombie,a monster who cares nuts.

And yet we still have the one Malaysia clinics...

A Sister let loose with a HO

Sister : Doctor,do you know what day is it today?
HO : Saturday...
Sister : Good.Do you think that any anest MO is coming to give an epidural to a patient?
HO : Those who are oncall??
Sister : this is a Saturday.No Anest MO would come to give and epidural to a patient.And furtheremore the patient's os is already 8cm.Use your brain-lah!
HO : .....

Rantings

I should stop feeling sorry for myself.
I always felt sorry for the life that I lead.Always in denial and reluctance.
I am overly sensitive and it's taking a toll on me.I can't work effectively.Maybe my period is coming.Maybe I don't really know what I want.

I was thrown over by free-ness of the current situation that the slightest change sent my mood rocking straight away to the cliff.I know comfortable is a fairy-tale for me.Is it too pessimistic that I think I'm meant to suffer?

Things that effect me most:-
- the current responsibility I have.
- the 'sometimes' laziness I have
- the great housemens that throw their antics at me and I lost my footing and my trains of thoughts
- massive reluctance from myself

Weekend..

I noticed how cruel people around me are.To an extend that it will shock you.

Am I destined to suffer?Such a beautiful weekend went by so fast.And back to hell tomorrow.