Rantings

I should stop feeling sorry for myself.
I always felt sorry for the life that I lead.Always in denial and reluctance.
I am overly sensitive and it's taking a toll on me.I can't work effectively.Maybe my period is coming.Maybe I don't really know what I want.

I was thrown over by free-ness of the current situation that the slightest change sent my mood rocking straight away to the cliff.I know comfortable is a fairy-tale for me.Is it too pessimistic that I think I'm meant to suffer?

Things that effect me most:-
- the current responsibility I have.
- the 'sometimes' laziness I have
- the great housemens that throw their antics at me and I lost my footing and my trains of thoughts
- massive reluctance from myself

Weekend..

I noticed how cruel people around me are.To an extend that it will shock you.

Am I destined to suffer?Such a beautiful weekend went by so fast.And back to hell tomorrow.

Conflict Today

Should I envy those who work 9-5?Should I envy those who work in the office?Should I envy those who can have ample time of sleep?

Should I assume that getting to work in the female ward is a blessing to be able to learn to work harder?or should I take it as entering another hell?Should I envy those who has real friends?

Today,was a blessing in the earlier part of the day because mother crab wasn't around.When it came towards the end,it wasn't a blessing anymore.No one wanted to help me do a peritoneal tap.

And the patient irritates the hell out of me.Telling me how many fluids he wanted me to take out.Telling how to do a procedure just because he has undergone it 3 times.Comparing me with another housemen.Wide-eyed when I told him I just worked for 2 months plus.When the-so-great housemen is also my batch.
Being human,I totally lost my patience.
He's still alive.Don't worry.

Time waits for no one

Look at the date..
Honestly,I almost gave up on blogging.Due to time constraint.Many things happened during this past 2 months.

Currently I am posted in Melaka.Some place where's there's more life than Kangar.According to most people.But I find it dead in many ways.Maybe it takes time to blend it.Maybe the work and responsibility that I'm facing made it harder to see things around me clearly.Maybe I have changed.Either ways..I'm still alive and still feeling trapped.Like there's a permanent noose around my neck.

Sooo many times I considered a transfer.Like I would get one.But no matter where I go,the problem would still be the same.A housemen life...You don't see the sun when you go to work,and you don't see the sun when you're coming back from work.

I've been in the same ward for 2 months.They are changing me into a new ward on the 25th.My current ward has a bad combination of bosses.(except one nice MO).And I'm entering another lioness den on the 25th.Should I say a string of bad luck?Or a string of chances for me to prove that I am capable in working under pressure?

So many insecurities are hitting at me at once and many times I got hit hard.

The Long Awaited Call

Got a call from the Ministry of Health on Saturday.Told me that I would be in the list for the 16th of July induction.Location and schedule will be mailed later this week.At first I was happy after a long wait and finally the call came.Then paranoia hits me.Since when does the government carried out their business on Saturday??Most people told me it might be a prank.That sort of brought my spirit down.Only later in the day,I got confirmation that I was not the only one who got the call.Most of my friends from KL got the call.So,..PHEW!~!~So now,I'm anxiously waiting for the mail.By 21st June,I might have a job already!That's another dreadful part of HO's life.But life goes on.

Got into a fight yesterday.Still can't forget it.It's bugging my head.

Tribute

May God bless those who fall while fighting cancer recently.
1.Farrah Fawcett (rectal ca)
2.Shukri Hashim(actor) (pancreatic ca)

And no doubt many others that I don't know.
Your determination in living is a lesson for all of us who are ungrateful of life.

Welcome July

Happy Birthday in advance to anyone whose birthday is in the month of July.

I'm not much of a birthday wisher since I tend not to notice dates.Sorry.Though I did try my best.I also notice that I don't update my blog as often as I used to.Well,my being at home with nothing much to do just somehow made me see the world less.I have a new laptop though.One of my moves to make me prepare and look forward to the working world.Which sadly takes a long time to happen.Up to now,I haven't been called for induction.(Another government propaganda)I am not at all motivated.I don't study and the it makes me rusty.Feeling so negative almost the whole time.With financial constraint,I'm not able to do much.I should get a job.Hehe,at starbucks maybe?Or an assistant at a clinic or something.

Michael Jackson passed away.Sounds like he's living a sad life.And his time finally came.I am not sure if he is Muslim as what the rumours said.If he is,Al-fatihah to him.And suddenly the number of Michael's fan increased from his death.Funny people.

Happy Father's Day

Picture taken in January 2008.The last trip to Jakarta.My father on wheel chair.At Cengkareng international airport.

Happy father's day to all fathers.

Currently spending almost 5 months jobless.I think my batch waited the longest.And our names still hasn't come up at the Health Ministry.

Right Retro orbital pain

Malaysian antics of the day.

Scene 1.At CIMB Jalan Raja Laut.
Guard: Kak,tak bleh lalu sini(pedestrian walk besides CIMB)
Kak : Saya nak tumpang lalu je,nak pergi situ(pointing across the road)
Guard:Kak lalu sebelah sana je..(pointing back at where we came from)
Kak : Situ tak bleh lalu.Ada dawai.Sangkut,luka nanti..kalo boleh saya dah lalu sana dah...(beginning to feel irritated)
Guard: Masuk SOGO balik la..keluar ikut SOGO
Kak :(bodoh ke ape guard ni?)Ler..saya dah sampai sini.Nak lalu je,bukan nak buat ape pon.bukan nak mencuri...
Guard:Tak bleh la kak..(another fren came behind him)
Guard2:Nak gi mana kak?
Kak : Nak gi seberang jalan tu je..
Guard2:ok kak,lalu je la sini..
Kak :(crossed the line)(turns at the first guard)tak rugi kan?tak rosak ape pon...
Guard: dah bagi jalan cakap macam tu pulak...
Kak :(with aunt walked straight and never look behind)
Guard2:(shouting)Assalamualaikum!
Kak :(determined to be rude and ignored)
Guard2:salam pun tak jawab...

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Scene 2.At Mydin.
Two staffs at the front door trying to wrap everything in plastic to avoid theft.
Cik kak gave her shopping bags to one staffs to be wrapped in plastic.(being cooperative)
Lady staff : Beg tangan besar kene bubuh plastik.
Cik kak : habis tu,macam mana nak ambil dompet nk bayar?
Lady staff : bukak la beg ambil dompet..
Cik kak :(thinking.if this lady asked to wrapped the bag how to retrieve the purse?)
takkan nak pegang purse kat luar?beg letak dlm plastik?
Lady staff : (mumbles somthing) kalau hilang purse hp kami tak bertanggungjawab..tu baca peraturan yg ditampal tu..
Cik kak :(wondered who's the idiot who came up with this rules)Peliknya..
(took out her purse and hp out of her bag before the bag was sealed by the stupid plastic wrapped)
Guy staff : takyah bawak keluar purse ngan hp tu..
Cik kak :(stared irritatedly)kalau saya nak bayar mcm mana? (and walked off)

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Scene 3.At Teddy tales.

Cik kak : (pointing to various size of pencil case to a staff who religiously follows her around)
Pensil box ni beza saiz ye?beza sgt ke?
Staff : (stared silently)
Cik kak :(Can't this malaysian understand malay at least?)(trying to accomodate her with English)Is there a big difference from this pencil case to this one?(showing to her)
Staff : (stared again?)
Cik kak :ooookkkkk....
Staff :(still following my backside)

New Moon Trailer

"Jake,run!"
Errr...If anyone has read New Moon,I don't see any reason for this dialogue.
Well,they've changed the story.Not entirely the story but it just seemed strange.Bella is supposed to find out about Jacob being a werewolf AFTER her confrontation with Laurent.I don't know how many other parts they are changing.We just have to watch it.Hope they don't screw up the whole story.

My interview went well.If you could call it one.It's just my luck one of the guys is my late dad's friends.He was just shocked to find out that my father passed away last year.
Putrajaya morning traffic really sucks.It took 30 mins from Putrajaya Central to reach Parcel C.We arrived exactly at 7.58am.

My cousin got married over the weekend.The celebration was grand.And I enjoyed myself.Minus the corset for the kebaya.

Currently I'm just waiting the call for induction and the new phase will begin.

Welcome June!I hope to see many good things in this month.

-updates-

I booked myself an interview with the SPA this friday.Kinda anxious about it.Like I was never anxious about anything..

Anyway,I'm stepping into a new phase in my life.And it's scary.

Mutterings

I don't get it.
Simply don't get it.

Why is it that everyone..no correction,not everyone but most people kept saying 'if you want any help,you can definitely ask me'?Which is completely not true.
For instance when my dad passed away..everyone kept giving their condolences and all..ok fine.It's just so sick to hear when they said they'd help if we ever need anything..but they didn't.Most of them just ran off.Empty promises.Empty offers.If they don't want to help out might as well butt out.
OK,that was a year back.

And it's the same now.When I need help...It's just not there.Sometimes I blamed myself for being too dependent.Which I hate being.Sometimes I also blamed my poor PR.Which is true.I just don't get it.I may have a poor PR.But I never really bother or irritate anyone.Not that I know off.I'm sure I don't do it to everyone.I might not be fun as a company.I know I'm a recluse.People around me long enough also knows tht.

Maybe it's God's way of asking me to get things done myself.So that I don't owe anyone anything???

Stucked In Twilight Zone

This morning SPA called me up.To confirm my bookings for an interview at their place.Well,I told them any date would be fine so long its not on the 12th.I'm childish and I don't know when will I ever get the fact that I need to be able to stand or at least pretend to stand 'a particular person' presence nearby.So childish and I'm not proud of myself.Not able to overcome my grudge.Anyway,leave it to that.

The thing is that lady from SPA who called me up addressed me 'doctor'.Wow.For a moment I thought she had the wrong number.I know I'm being overboard by just making an issue out of this.But honestly,being me,I'm terrified.It's like I'm terrified of something that's not even there.I know everyone should face the future.At first I don;t know whether I'm up for this.Stupid right?It's not as if I only got one foot stuck in this field,I jumped with my whole body inside the well.So there's no turning back.I had told my mum that I'm actually hating myself for feeling this way,cowardly and it also nauseated me in many ways.It's kinda bad to wish my dad's around for a time like this when my mother tried her best to convince me.Well,it's not thoroughly working.

I've been at home for months and I'm getting rusty.I don't remember much of the medical stuffs.I need a kick to get started.And thanks to my wrong timing,I just recently started to read the Twilight saga and I couldn't put it down.I left Breaking Dawn to read,which I need to borrow from a bookstore in Ampang.And I can't sit still,itching to go to Ampang now.Mad.And my head is so full of Jacob Black.Really,if they don't put Robert Pattinson as Edward Cullen and reading the book,it wouldn't be hard to choose Jacob rather than Edward.Haha.I'd prefer a space heater rather than a marble to cuddle with in a weather like in Forks.I'd prefer a sort-of jerk rather than someone who could suffocate me with too much love.Ouch,here I go again.

Anyway,I used to think that reading this kind of books are unintelligent.I'm sorry for my prejudice.I broke my promise not to be judgemental.Need to work harder on my restraint.I like vampire stories.Thanks to Anne Rice,I used to read alot of her books.Especially Interview With the Vampire.(I like Lestat).Huhu.Then more and more vampire stories trying to copy each other.Somehow the gothic part just faded away from my point of view.

Pray that I get over Jacob Black fast.I need to work on my studies now!

I Have Accepted It

In a few hours,12.20am 5th of May 2009,marks 1 year of my father's passing.

The time of mourning is over and now is the time to remember him without feeling sad.

We miss you.

Noor Hisham b Ramly

13th Feb 1957 - 5th May 2008

Where it all started..a year ago

A year ago,on the very same date.Wasn't the happiest time for me.As I looked back,I can feel the emotions that surrounded me.Still fresh,still the feeling of something pulling you down.The anxiety that wouldn't rest.

I was called home halfway through OT(I was in Surgical posting).My mother no longer sounded positive.Somehow I knew this was it.But always in denial,frantically searching a flight ticket home.Trying to convince myself how I can deal with it.All failed.My systems just shut down.Amazingly according to some people I still can put on a calm face and joked around.

Some droppings on the blog

Somebody mentioned to me about 'arranged marriage' sometime ago.And I cringed to those words.I don't know the reason but i felt every fibre of my being tried to fight it.Haha.It's not like my mum is setting up me with someone.I certainly hope that none of my uncles and aunts are doing that.If my dad is still around,he would frown on it.Haha.I would lie if I said marriage never came across my mind at this age,but for me it isn't time yet.

The Kite Runner

A must read.

My heart goes out to Hassan.

"There is a way to be good again" ^_^

Train blues..

One fine afternoon..

Announcement: Train ke Rawang akan tiba 2 minit lagi...sila beratur di belakang garisan hijau

As if everyone just ignored or couldn't understand the announcement and went crowding at the train's door.Passengers from inside the train had to knock everyone in their way to get out of the train.This happened in KL.Either they don't understand the announcement or don't feel obliged to follow the instructions.

The green line.Sometimes they have blue and red.Confusing.

One Fine Afternoon

At the LRT station,while waiting for the train...

African male : Is this the line to Masjid Jamek?
Malay girl : Masjid Jamek?Yes,it is..
African male : Ok,thank you..

Moments later...

African male : Where are you going?
Malay girl :(can't believe this guy is so nosy and frowns)..PWTC...(tries to walk away)
African male :Are you Malay?
Malay girl : (what's this guy's problem??Still frowning)..Yes
African male :Are you single?
Malay girl : (can't believe what she's hearing)..Huh?what?
African male :Are you single?
Malay girl : No,I am married.(lies off)

The train came right the next moment.
Malay girl was not relieved because the African male sat across her.As soon as the train reached PWTC,Malay girl got off the train and went home.Kept looking over her shoulder to see whether she's followed.Thank God,she wasn't.

New addition to the family

From left: Lucas(new guy),Toby and Turtle

Movies I Watched In Feb and March

Watched this in Jakarta with the family

Drooling over Brad Pitt in TGV KLCC with Bob(I don't think he drools over Brad Pitt,Huhu)

Also in TGV KLCC with Diyana

Watched this alone at GSC Midvalley

OMG

Some friends needed to extend their studies in Kangar for a bit.Due to some inevitable problems.Now I am worried about my Public Health posting.I am tired of putting the blame on anyone.It's just it wasn't a wonderful group to work with and an impossible one also.So..*fingers crossed*..hopes for the best.

Good Morning

Good morning to a rainy morning...listening to James Blunt.With the quietness surrounding me,so peaceful.Was hoping that I live in some cottage with a spectacular view outside.Lagi mantap.

A chance to reflect yourself..and upgrade your patience.I have been praying for patience,so I guess this is a good chance for me to show that I am patient.I like the advise given by Morgan Freeman in Bruce Almighty.Something about when you pray to God for strength or patience,we won't get patience or strength,but the chance to be so.

I never consider myself patient.But I guess deep down,there's some patience in me.I hope it's not like oil,we ran out of it at some point.

Benjamin Butang

I watched The Curious Case of Benjamin Button today.So many things that I like about this movie.

I like the humour,when the old lady said that the Benjamin baby looks like her husband.

I like the old fella kept saying "Did you know that I was strike by the lightning 7 times?"

I like the way he called "Momma"

I like the part when Benjamin answered Daisy's offer with one single word "Absolutely" ;p

I like how sexy Brad Pitt looks when he ages backwards...Wow!Hot!

Personality Test

Personality test I took.Recommended by Jen.Which I think,explained to me in a better way about who I am..

Your view on yourself:
You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

The Tale So far..

This is my 4th week at home and my 5th week of holiday/jobless-ness..(is there such word?)

My accomplishments so far?I'd say zero.

Let's see what I've done all these weeks..

1st week of hols..Met the dentist in Kangar and got my molar extracted.Managed to survive packing and got myself out of Kangar.Was in so much pain no doubt,had multiple painkillers(I know I shouldn't depend on them,but hey,they are my bestfriends).Developed pus over the extraction site and over my tonsils.Congratulations,more pain!I also remembered taking the double decker bus from Kangar to KL in that condition.Got caught in the rain while running for toilet in Bukit Gantang R&R.Fever!To sum it up,I wasn't feeling well the whole week.

2nd week of hols..Realised that my Paediatric logbook was missing!When it is crucial for me to have it in order to get my final marks for Paeds.Asked the office in Kangar to send it over to KL before I left for Medan.And of course got my ticket for Medan.When I looked on the internet,Airasia to Medan costs around RM200,but when I got to the counter in KLsentral,it became rm418!!Madness,finally got MAS for RM207.Not bad huh?That Friday the 13th was my father's 52nd birthday.We visited him on Sunday.And our usual activities are pulling out the weeds.Huhu..

3rd week of hols..Highlight of the week was that I finally had a meal at one banana leave curry house that I've been wanting to go in Ampang.Sedap weh..And not forgetting I went to take off my stitches in Bangsar.(there's 3 stitches,one went missing due to vigorous mouth rinsing with Listerine).After that,I went around Midvalley on my own,walking down memory lane.Watched Valkyrie which I know my boyfriend would love to watch.

4th week..managed to haul myself to Medan,to settle some things.Stayed over my friend's house,which allows me to see Medan from another point of view.Wasnt bad.As I used to picture it from my previous 4 years stay in Medan.Went on eating spree...places I never thought of with delicious food.Remarkably I didn't get food poisoning.Somethings won't just change in the Indonesian system.I don't know the term for it,but we had a hard time just trying to get our marks in the 'green book'.And..it was a relief when I landed back in KLIA.On Friday that week..went out with a school friend to KLCC,watched Pink Panther and my mum's car broke down at the elevated highway..Also got my ticket for Jakarta.

5th week...which starts today..just another ordinary day with alot of chores.Got trapped with the laundry people downstairs..haih,the total that I need to pay for my laundry rm24.40!Madness..

So...what are my accomplishments?

Do Not

Do not take the KTM komuter and Putra LRT during peak hours.Unless you really have to.Damn..I learnt my lesson.

KL's road drama

1.People here doesn't understand the meaning of giving signals and they also can't do so

2.People here can't tolerate giving way to people/cars..instead, they love showing the beautiful middle finger..I wonder if their's are really that small and skinny?haha

3.They don't know how to queue up,they only know how to cut the queue.

4.The male drivers like to intimidate the female drivers and I dare say that some 'cik kak' were also damn rude.tak padan dgn 'tudung'

5.The best way,is to take anti-anxiety before you go on the road..that way,you're not tempted to fight back and create more probs.

Happy Birthday

Happy 52nd birthday to dear ayah

May you rest in peace and

Allah bless you.

We miss you.

First Time

1. First time I'm blogging from home.And the dial-up is real slow.

2.First time I got my impacted tooth extracted and I developed ulcer and tonsilitis at the same time.

3.First time that my tummy cannot tolerate antibiotics.

Langkawi pics part 2

Dinner at Telaga Arabic,Pantai Cenang

Our dinner

On the way to Makam Mahsuri

Makam Mahsuri

Bye2 Langkawi(sunset from the ferry)

Langkawi pics part 1

In the ferry
In the cable car

Camwhoring at Gng Mat Cincang

Air terjun Telaga 7??

Sunset at Tg. Rhu

Goodbye 38

38 is the numeric for my molar.My tooth.Which was extracted/taken out today.I have chronic pericoronitis.So,we eliminate the tooth.Haha.Anyone who has regular visits to the dentist for all sorts of procedure will understand my feelings.I used to regularly visit the dentist for my root canal treatment and also for my crown.And again now.I didn't take the pic of my tooth.

The anaesthetics was painful.I'm very sure I will get migraine after the procedure,which I did.The pain was unbearable when the effects of the anaesthetics is diminishing.As for now,it's tolerable.I'm having difficulty to eat as it's hard for me to open my mouth and the pain at the site.Other than the headache,I'm fine.

Well,I am a patient today.Suddenly I just feel the need to thank my patients out loud.For letting me learnt alot of things,somehow causing them pain while learning.I'm sorry for the pain and I thank you all for letting me learn.

Ramblings

I tried and tried..and keep on trying.I'm not perfect.I might be one of the worst human God created.Ignorant,selfish,self-centered..you name it.But still I tried to change.I don't want to say I'm tired.Tired of trying.Because I'm not ready to quit.

Apakah yang engkau cari
Tak kau temukan di hatiku
Apakah yang engkau inginkan
Tak dapat lagi ku penuhi
Begitulah aku
Pahamilah aku

Mungkin aku tidaklah sempurna
Tetapi hatiku memilikimu sepanjang umurku
Mungkin aku tak bisa memiliki
Dirimu seumur hidupku

Filled with Gratitude

I have finished my studies(my undergraduate studies) this week.I am thankful that I managed to make the day happened.And also not forgetting people around me who made it come true.People who really helped and support me all the way.I don't know how else I can thank you people.Thank you so much.People who gave me hard times..I don't have to explain here but the whole lot of you made me learnt alot too.About life and more about myself.I get to know myself through people like this.

I hope the future is better for me.I can't hope for a smooth sailing one can I?That's too good to be true.However,I pray for the strength to go through it.Face it the right way.Put aside all the wrong emotions and use my head more.

I always wanted to study medicine.I used to feel so insecure with myself.But I came to the understanding that everyone has their own path and journey.How we reach our goal,the roads can be different,can be longer than anyone else..but never forget,whatever it is,as long as you do it correctly without hurting people and your 'niat' is good..you'll be ok.Doesn't matter if the road is bad or longer.You have reached your ambition.I have done that.And I'm thankful.

I went to Langkawi on Friday and just got back yesterday.Was a nice trip.I enjoyed it tremendously.Alot of pics,I will upload it once I get it.

Happy Chinese New Year

Happy Chinese New Year

to all..

Take care and drive safely people.

Sad stuffs

Another post mortem today.The deceased is a 43 y/o chinese man.Who committed suicide by setting himself on fire.SAD.

Other than that,the situation in my group is not improving.The never-ending feud between the sick.Which is getting rather disgusting to watch them lie and backstab without realising that themselves are no better than the ones they stabbeb.

Am also SAD to see a good guy wasted to a bitch.I don't know how long they have been together.Just recently made official.

I feel SAD for not feeling motivated.Not driven to work harder.No enthusiasm towards learning and in improving myself.

I feel SAD that my student life is going to be over soon.And I am going to start working and become a responsible adult.Heavy stuffs.

I feel SAD that my dad is not around to see me become a doctor and get my butt kicked as a houseman.

What else am I SAD about?Yes,the fact that I haven't seen rain for such a long time.And that I didn't get a bus ticket this coming Friday night,so I have to go back on Saturday morning instead.(Be grateful nad,at least you got something)

Too much sadness.Enough said.

Ramblings

Currently I am doing my forensic posting.I only go to Alor Star hospital if there's a call for a post-mortem.And sadly so far I only got one case.(seems no one dies in an unnatural way lately)I don't think that case was publicised in the major newspapers,however I saw an article regarding that case in the local "Metro" newspaper(cuma northern parts of Malaysia je yang ada).

The body was found in an old paddy fields.The owner didn't notice anything unusual until the flies increased in numbers and the smell was overwhelming.He initially thought it was a dead animal or something.So when the smell and flies was really bothersome,he went to the site one day with the plan to spray insecticide and bury the dead animal.That DEAD ANIMAL was wrapped up with a towel or something like it.And he discovered it was actually a human body.Called the authorities and they took care of things.

What interests me most was the fella's statement regarding the identity of the dead.He said he THINKS it is a foreigner due to the clothes on the body.I saw the dead body myself.Filled with maggots and all the imaginable and unimaginable ulat there.Memang takde rupa manusia dah.I can't even tell whether the body is Indian,Malay or Chinese!The dead guy wearing a black collared short sleeved shirt and a pair of jeans!Come on!Tell me no Malaysians ever wore such thing??Really ar?Hebat lah,can ID the dead guy by just his clothes!Next time if the police have any unidentified bodies can call this fella up.He can identify them.

I just think it's unfair to simply just point finger to the foreign workers if there's anything to do with brutality.People need to change their mindset.Any human being are capable for such acts when the emotions overcomes the rationality.And all humans deserve respect.Just because some are just different and less priviledged than you,doesn't mean they deserve to be ostracized when things like this happened.

I'm not able to provide pictures,since it's a police case.And I don't think it's wise to bring evidence like that to public view.

Anyway,this is only based on the what the fella thinks.And I blogged according to what I THINK.
Doesn't have to be right.It's just an opinion.

Happy Birthday!

Happy Birthday!

to

My beloved Donkey..

May this year be a prosperous year for you and gives you lots of happiness.

God Bless You

And I Love YOU!!

Reflecting

I did some reflection for the past few days.I think that my life is boring.Not because of what I do,but the way I take and see things.I was always pessimistic most of the time.Maybe people surrounding me played some parts in contributing,but how long can I put the blame on others.I can't continue blaming people around me for being what they are.Whether good or bad.Mostly bad(here I go again..)

I hate some people so much that I myself can't explain.Let's put it to a stop.They are just simply shallow people that don't worth a minute of my time.I should use less energy in being angry to them.Being angry takes a lot of energy.It's tiring and it gives you headache.For example,one of this people likes to flirt with people,being cute in getting things her way.She may be good in what she does.Whether people sees her for the real her,that's up to people.I just simply hate her that whatever she does irritates the hell out of me.Imagine being stuck in the midst of things and that I have to witnessed all the things she did,flirting being cute etc..since I scored badly in my social skills,I should take advantage of this.Just to watch what she's doing (not to copy her of course!)but just follow around to get cases or opportunities.I may not get the best,but at least I can make do or expand with what I got.But try in some other ways to improve on my social skills but minus the acting.

I hate people lying to me as if I'm a retarded 8 year old.To the human concerned,I just wish what she did doesn't backlash to her father who according to her is sick.Now I don't believe that her father is sick.Sad right?
These 2 people I've mentioned are just really sick.So I hope to forgive them both.Talk less to them and do not get involve in everything they do.I am better off alone than having them around.

Lazy Day

One tablet a day,keeps the doctor away!haha.

Only did laundry and washed some sandals.Went out for lunch with a friend.Met up several other people.Had lunch and started 'kutuking' several highly popular people in the 'terkutuk world'.Haha.Came back and nothing much.

Still considering whether to go out for dinner or not.Seems LAZY to walk.Even my mum didn't go out today.Stayed at home and cooked.Which make sense because a house is completed with a kitchen and a refrigerator and my hostel has none of those.Even if we have a kitchen or refrigerator,I'm pretty sure there are ignorant and unhygienic people that will ruined the whole thing.



The sun is smiling up brightly over Kangar today.And the wind is strong.It's actually a beautiful day,with people 'menuai padi'.I forgot to take pictures during lunch.



So shall I take a long walk under the sun on a windy day?

It's Orange Time

Chinese new year is coming and people starts selling oranges.To get into the mood,I myself bought oranges.(Partly because I need fruits as part of my diet).Instead of the normal size oranges,I bought the small oranges.I am sure you know which one.They look cute and baby-ish(is there such word?).It cost me around RM6 for one bag.

Baby oranges.I don't know that they are called.First few was sweet and this one was really sour.
Initially there's more oranges than in this above pic.Of course I already ate some of it.

Poor me,there's only 5 of these oranges that are still good to be eaten.The rest of the oranges are beginning to rot.

5 things at the moment

1) Happy anniversary to me and Donkey!It was yesterday.There wasn't any celebrations.

2) Liars are good friends with liars or backstabbers.That's why they are in a gang.No one wants to be their friends.

3) Watched 'Body Of Lies'.Kinda shocked for the first few minutes in the movie.Thought I choose the wrong movie.But I guess they have their message.One must see it with an open mind.

4) I dislike people who persistently ask me or wanting me to reply to their question verbally when I am swallowing my food.I don't plan to choke on my food you know.So be patient and use your eyes to see.

5) I'm currently doing 2 postings at once.Forensic+Ortho.

Conversations In The Head

I just got back from my 2nd dinner.Both which I had rice.Great!How am I supposed to bring my weight down to look good in my kebaya for convo?I already have the top which I hope the buttons won't come out when I wear it.Huhu..Just imagine the situation.

Just itching to post my silent statements:

1) Ada masanya,orang yang cakap besar dan busuk akan jatuh jugak..hanya Allah je yang tau bila.

2) Can't expect people to label you,the way you label yourself.Who the hell do you think you are?

3) I'd like to stay out of your problems.Do me a favor,don't drag me along into your stupid games.I don't 'think' the way you do.

Things I want to say to certain people. :)

May You All Rest In Peace

Terrifying pictures haunted me.The pictures of Palestinian children in their 'kain kapan'.So young to leave this world.Still innocent.They never harm the Israelis,what did they do that they deserve to be killed?I wonder what's it like if it were to be the Israelis children..

It's so ridiculous to see two sides at war,one side with a machine-gun and the other side were only using stones.

End Of The Year Pics

I need oxygen y'all(Anaest posting)
Angry makcik on the way to kenduri.(Baju kurung matches the bedsheet-la,can go back to sleep)

Yup,that's right.Christmas at KLCC,dapat separuh pokok not the top pun jadila.Thanks to the 'amateur' photograhper. :p