Where it all started..a year ago

A year ago,on the very same date.Wasn't the happiest time for me.As I looked back,I can feel the emotions that surrounded me.Still fresh,still the feeling of something pulling you down.The anxiety that wouldn't rest.

I was called home halfway through OT(I was in Surgical posting).My mother no longer sounded positive.Somehow I knew this was it.But always in denial,frantically searching a flight ticket home.Trying to convince myself how I can deal with it.All failed.My systems just shut down.Amazingly according to some people I still can put on a calm face and joked around.