Reflecting

I did some reflection for the past few days.I think that my life is boring.Not because of what I do,but the way I take and see things.I was always pessimistic most of the time.Maybe people surrounding me played some parts in contributing,but how long can I put the blame on others.I can't continue blaming people around me for being what they are.Whether good or bad.Mostly bad(here I go again..)

I hate some people so much that I myself can't explain.Let's put it to a stop.They are just simply shallow people that don't worth a minute of my time.I should use less energy in being angry to them.Being angry takes a lot of energy.It's tiring and it gives you headache.For example,one of this people likes to flirt with people,being cute in getting things her way.She may be good in what she does.Whether people sees her for the real her,that's up to people.I just simply hate her that whatever she does irritates the hell out of me.Imagine being stuck in the midst of things and that I have to witnessed all the things she did,flirting being cute etc..since I scored badly in my social skills,I should take advantage of this.Just to watch what she's doing (not to copy her of course!)but just follow around to get cases or opportunities.I may not get the best,but at least I can make do or expand with what I got.But try in some other ways to improve on my social skills but minus the acting.

I hate people lying to me as if I'm a retarded 8 year old.To the human concerned,I just wish what she did doesn't backlash to her father who according to her is sick.Now I don't believe that her father is sick.Sad right?
These 2 people I've mentioned are just really sick.So I hope to forgive them both.Talk less to them and do not get involve in everything they do.I am better off alone than having them around.