Keep Moving Forward

All I can do for the time being is to stay alive and keep moving forward.Swallow the bitter taste of life at the moment.Just to make sure that I'm not stuck when everyone else is moving forward with time.Time waits for no one.

I guess I am worried of my finals for medicine posting.It's one of the scariest finals.Because the scope is very wide.And my dad just reminded me that I need to do extra work in the medical wad.To keep up.When I am already lagging so much.I don't know exactly when is the test for me.But must prepare from now itself.The reluctance to take a step forward,is bothering me so much.Why can't I push myself to prepare?Or that have I already given up so fast without giving a fight?The thought that I might fail even before I took my exam is really pulling me down.
Right now I just need the push to take that step and maintain on the right road.Pray that I get it soon before it's too late.

Other than that.I think I am getting a lot of things in the pediatrics wad.Good doctors.Made us want to study willingly,instead of forcing ourself to study out of fear.
Except the patients.Most of them are annoying.
It's like a big family in the wad.Where the specialist is the mother or the father,reminding the big sisters/brother(MO),guiding the middle child(HO),and us the youngest child(students).
It doesn't feel like that in the medical wad.Except with the nurses.They are by far the friendliest group of nurses in the 3rd class medical wad.Very nice,helpful people.

Some of the group members went on leave as they please.With all sorts of reasons.I honestly doubt the excuses they gave.But certainly,it's none of my business and my new year's resolution is to improve.I need to improve to stop worrying about other people's affair and just worry about myself.I'm worried of dad.At least my father is sick,for real.How I'd wish he's healthy and not sick for real.